Feels like it never gonna end....

Hi Everyone !

I'm really struggleing at the moment.... I think that i'm one fat miserable idiot! I'm ugly and worthless....

My mom always talks about her body. That she needs to go on a diet because she is fat. She come home and tell me about someone's succesfully weight loss.... *sighs*.

My father is on a diet too.... He said that he haven't had meat for months...  They don't know how hard for me to hear it... They don't know that i want to loose weight as well... That i start to hate myself again.... That i don't like what i see in the mirror.

I can't talk about it for my dad because if i do, he will say that .: "Just get over it!" And my mom....my mom just will say that "Are you starting it again ? I thought that you finished that topic...."

I had no one to talk to....and i feel that i'm terribly alone....and lonely.

I know how easy would be to give up.... But i got some much to loose. : My real life, my friends, my freedom and my happiness. etc.

It is just hard... Hard to breath....hard to hold on....