Hi Everyone !
I'm like one giant big pig. All i can do is eating all day. And thinking about eating. I did 1,5 hours cardio almost every day for 6 months. So i built muscles. Which was good...at least i thought it was. 'Cause i stood up on the scale about 3 weeks ago and i was schoked. My weight is....so much. I'm obese... I'm one giant failure. Useless... I've restricted for 2 months and if i eat all i want to do is purge and cut myself. Cry and shout !
School is tomorrow and i hate it. They will see how fat i am...they will laugh at me behind my back. I hate the eating disorder... what kind of eating disorder ??!! When i'm a huge whale.... Sad...sad....
I'm like one giant big pig. All i can do is eating all day. And thinking about eating. I did 1,5 hours cardio almost every day for 6 months. So i built muscles. Which was good...at least i thought it was. 'Cause i stood up on the scale about 3 weeks ago and i was schoked. My weight is....so much. I'm obese... I'm one giant failure. Useless... I've restricted for 2 months and if i eat all i want to do is purge and cut myself. Cry and shout !
School is tomorrow and i hate it. They will see how fat i am...they will laugh at me behind my back. I hate the eating disorder... what kind of eating disorder ??!! When i'm a huge whale.... Sad...sad....
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