Hi Everyone ! :)

I'm still struggling. The voice in my head screams louder than ever before. I barely eat. I force myself not to exercise but it's hard.

( The picture is not mine :) )


I hate ED!!! I hate it so much ! But i feel that the darkness  -my old friend - is coming again like a huge wave. And it will cover me if i won't stop it before it is too late.

So the choice is mine. And i know that i'm not alone ! :)


When i first saw this picture it almost made me cry. And now i'm almost crying again. Because i don't smile often...again. My mood is swinging...again. My mum said that my skin is not phale but yellow. That i have dark shadows around my eyes. 

But i don't see myself like this. I feel that something is clearly NOT right. Yesterday i went for a walk with my mum. Two girls walked there too. One of them was well not fat but you know a bit chubby maybe. I looked at my mom and asked her: " Mom, do i look like her ?" She looked at me with surpirse. She said " no, absolutely not!" I said that: " I see myself like that". By the way my mum is very supportive ! :) Thank God !

Have a great day guys! :)  xxx

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