Hi Everyone ! :)
It is 2:09am and i can't sleep...surprise!
So...I started to talk with someone...and we talked about strange things tonight. I don't know how i feel about...him. I mean we can't say that i'm in love with him. That is sure !!!! He said that he looking at me like a challange... but later he said that he couldn't see any challange. I mean ...so we talked about sex...right i said it out loud. He knows about my ED and said that wake up in myself the inner beast. But i'm afraid of it too much. I mean i don't know what is going to happen if i do. He said that maybe he could wake up this inner beast. And i answered that : " Wake me up!". I know it is not a game... And i'm in a dangerous side of life. But something....something deep in me wants to break out ! The real women. But i'm afraid too... I'm not his playmate ! Sometimes i just want to pull him into the bed and make him beg me to stop... I think my hormons started to working again !
It is 2:09am and i can't sleep...surprise!
So...I started to talk with someone...and we talked about strange things tonight. I don't know how i feel about...him. I mean we can't say that i'm in love with him. That is sure !!!! He said that he looking at me like a challange... but later he said that he couldn't see any challange. I mean ...so we talked about sex...right i said it out loud. He knows about my ED and said that wake up in myself the inner beast. But i'm afraid of it too much. I mean i don't know what is going to happen if i do. He said that maybe he could wake up this inner beast. And i answered that : " Wake me up!". I know it is not a game... And i'm in a dangerous side of life. But something....something deep in me wants to break out ! The real women. But i'm afraid too... I'm not his playmate ! Sometimes i just want to pull him into the bed and make him beg me to stop... I think my hormons started to working again !
I feel like this sometimes...
If i'm letting him to wake me up...that means that i'm LETting the control go....some type of control...i was always afraid to let the control go. *Sighs*
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