Hi Everyone!
In the moment i'm sitting on my bed and listening to music. I just finished crying. In the moment i feel like i could go back to the start. That i could " not eating" again, i could just get up and do at least 50 minutes of zumba or more ( i know myself i shouldn't stop at 50minutes... ) it would be so easy because i'm alone right now. My mum is away so as my brother. I could throw the foods away, make mess at the kitchen just to make the illosion of eating. Yes... I could do things like that. I could lie. Yes...that would be very easy. To be perfectly honest it is very tempting. It would be so easy to give up. BUT OF COURSE I WON'T GIVE UP!!!! NEVER EVER !!!! :)
Even when thereis a part of me who is thinking like an anorexic, behave like an anorexic and feel like a big fat ugly disgusting person. Even when there is a part of me who is thinking like a person who has to go to a diet. Even then !!!!!!!! :)
Because there is anthor part of me i call " the sober me" who KNOWS that ALL this struggel WORTH IT !!!!! I AM WORTH IT !!!! YOU ARE WORTH IT !!!!!!!!!! Do that.: You can be sure that the pain in your tummy after eating won't stay forever! The tears that you have cried and cry... imagine that all the drop of which are falls down turn into a whole one crystal bowl. You can hold it in your hand and watch that is sparkling. Because with the cry comes right from the deep of the soul. The cry clears the soul out i think ! :). Crying means that you let things go. So if you feel that you have to cry just do !!!! In silence or as loud as you can!!!! When it's over you will feel free ! :)
LIFE IS BEAUTIFUL !!!! FOOD IS A FUEL !!!! YOUR BODY IS A TEMPLE!!!! EVERY DAY IS A GIFT !!!! YOU ARE SPECIAL AND IRREPLACEBLE !!!! YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL JUST THE WAY YOU ARE !!!!!! :)
Inspiring song.:
In the moment i'm sitting on my bed and listening to music. I just finished crying. In the moment i feel like i could go back to the start. That i could " not eating" again, i could just get up and do at least 50 minutes of zumba or more ( i know myself i shouldn't stop at 50minutes... ) it would be so easy because i'm alone right now. My mum is away so as my brother. I could throw the foods away, make mess at the kitchen just to make the illosion of eating. Yes... I could do things like that. I could lie. Yes...that would be very easy. To be perfectly honest it is very tempting. It would be so easy to give up. BUT OF COURSE I WON'T GIVE UP!!!! NEVER EVER !!!! :)
Even when thereis a part of me who is thinking like an anorexic, behave like an anorexic and feel like a big fat ugly disgusting person. Even when there is a part of me who is thinking like a person who has to go to a diet. Even then !!!!!!!! :)
Because there is anthor part of me i call " the sober me" who KNOWS that ALL this struggel WORTH IT !!!!! I AM WORTH IT !!!! YOU ARE WORTH IT !!!!!!!!!! Do that.: You can be sure that the pain in your tummy after eating won't stay forever! The tears that you have cried and cry... imagine that all the drop of which are falls down turn into a whole one crystal bowl. You can hold it in your hand and watch that is sparkling. Because with the cry comes right from the deep of the soul. The cry clears the soul out i think ! :). Crying means that you let things go. So if you feel that you have to cry just do !!!! In silence or as loud as you can!!!! When it's over you will feel free ! :)
LIFE IS BEAUTIFUL !!!! FOOD IS A FUEL !!!! YOUR BODY IS A TEMPLE!!!! EVERY DAY IS A GIFT !!!! YOU ARE SPECIAL AND IRREPLACEBLE !!!! YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL JUST THE WAY YOU ARE !!!!!! :)
Inspiring song.:
Hey!
VálaszTörlésHow are you doin´? How do you feel about christmas, do you get anxiety because of that?
Hey !
VálaszTörlésI'm doing really fine thanks! :) And you ?
Of i have my ups and downs but i keep fighting and stay strong !!
About christmas? I can't wait for it !!! I am really excited about that !! I get a bit anxiety about it yes... knowing that i'm going to eat in front of the whole family... whoever they don't stress me ! They don't talk about it a lot or often. Actually... we don't talk about it :D What about you ? Do you get anxiety ? What are your feelings about christmas ?
Thanks for commenting ! :) Hope you doin' well and fine !!!!!!:)
xxx