Hi Everyone !
I'm sitting here in front of my computer and almost cry. I cried a lot in the past few days. We had so much fight with my mum. She cried and shout with me, than i shouted back and the circle began...
Other people who hasn't got eating disorder can " just eat". I can't. But why ?! My mum and my brother can just eat what they like. I can't. I get tired of it.... My mum say she want to help me...but she isn't. She'll go away with her friends tomorrow, and the day after tomorrow again... So she can't prepare foods for me. That's all. I mean she is doing her best, she stays up lately to prepare food for me. But somehow things just don't get right. I'm tired. She is tired too. In the other hand there are days when she and me have a really nice time together. Such as yesterday. Because we went to town and she bought a nice hat to me. We had fun. But i just don't know... don't let my family members close to me. I try/ do push them far away from me.
I'm sitting here in front of my computer and almost cry. I cried a lot in the past few days. We had so much fight with my mum. She cried and shout with me, than i shouted back and the circle began...
Other people who hasn't got eating disorder can " just eat". I can't. But why ?! My mum and my brother can just eat what they like. I can't. I get tired of it.... My mum say she want to help me...but she isn't. She'll go away with her friends tomorrow, and the day after tomorrow again... So she can't prepare foods for me. That's all. I mean she is doing her best, she stays up lately to prepare food for me. But somehow things just don't get right. I'm tired. She is tired too. In the other hand there are days when she and me have a really nice time together. Such as yesterday. Because we went to town and she bought a nice hat to me. We had fun. But i just don't know... don't let my family members close to me. I try/ do push them far away from me.
Just keep on pushing yourself and don't give up!
VálaszTörlésAt the moment is still hard because you're not used to feed yourself properly and you still fear some foods.
Keep strong, keep eating as varied as possible. Sit down, relax and enjoy your meal. It doesn't really matter how long it takes you to eat, as long as you manage to finish the plate every time. You NEED to!
I know it will get easier after a while, as you will start to see eating as a pleasure and not as a obstacle.
Keep up the good work and stay strong xxx
Thanks for your comment and advices ! :)
VálaszTörlésYes it's very hard...most of the times i would like to eat pasta or such things. I mean it seems like my body is craving for carbohydrates. Which is a fear of mine...
So you say i should finish my plate every time ? OK...
Hope you doing fine ! xxx