Hello Everyone !
I'm so tired !!! Of being sick...of starvation !!! It 's almost 2 AM in the "morning" and i can't sleep. Lying in my bed and thinking of my life,of food. The time when i was healthy and i could eat a sandwich without the damn fear!!! I'm afraid of gain weight! I am afraid of food! How ridicoulus this situation!!! I mean the calories are just f..ing ( sorry I'm very upset ) numbers!!! The numbers of the scale isn't me ! However...my weight is now extremely low... I'm tired of this fear... I want to be healthy again !!! Be with my family again ! I am a walking skeleton !!! If i'm walking in the streets people look at me like" that". They scared of me... I'm tired of throw the half of the food away.... Throw away the food at all... Please can you give me some advice, how to finish my meals ? Leave a comment or a message if you do...Thanks a lot!
Before that i was talkative, cheerful, a girl who love life! I did well at school, i had friends.... and I smiled and laughed a lot. But now...This damn illnes will take everything that I am, if i let it. But I won't ! Because you know what ? I was here before !! An ED won't tell me what when and how much will I eat!!!
Hope you guys don't think anything bad about me, after reading this post. I just had to write it out of me ! Thank you for reading me ! :)
I'm so tired !!! Of being sick...of starvation !!! It 's almost 2 AM in the "morning" and i can't sleep. Lying in my bed and thinking of my life,of food. The time when i was healthy and i could eat a sandwich without the damn fear!!! I'm afraid of gain weight! I am afraid of food! How ridicoulus this situation!!! I mean the calories are just f..ing ( sorry I'm very upset ) numbers!!! The numbers of the scale isn't me ! However...my weight is now extremely low... I'm tired of this fear... I want to be healthy again !!! Be with my family again ! I am a walking skeleton !!! If i'm walking in the streets people look at me like" that". They scared of me... I'm tired of throw the half of the food away.... Throw away the food at all... Please can you give me some advice, how to finish my meals ? Leave a comment or a message if you do...Thanks a lot!
Before that i was talkative, cheerful, a girl who love life! I did well at school, i had friends.... and I smiled and laughed a lot. But now...This damn illnes will take everything that I am, if i let it. But I won't ! Because you know what ? I was here before !! An ED won't tell me what when and how much will I eat!!!
Hope you guys don't think anything bad about me, after reading this post. I just had to write it out of me ! Thank you for reading me ! :)
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